Motherhood did a number on me.
And I’m talking far beyond the scale.
Motherhood did a number on me mentally and inwardly.
I always said motherhood wouldn’t change me, but boy was I wrong.
Motherhood sure showed me!
I didn’t know I would have the child I always dreamed of, yet so often not enjoy it. I didn’t know I would be on edge most of the time and stress over the tiniest things.
Things are sure coming around.
Maybe it’s the Zoloft I was on for a bit.
Or the counseling we started taking.
Maybe it’s the break from Mother’s Day Out.
Or all the me time I have purposely been taking.
Maybe it’s because my son can now say “yooove you” and gives me hugs and kisses.
Maybe it’s because I am finally. adjusting. after 2 whole years.
It may be one of those things. Or a few added together.
Or maybe this is far more normal than we give it credit.
Just maybe, friend, it takes some people 2 years to adjust.
So mama, give yourself more credit than you do.
Motherhood is hard. It takes a toll on you physically and mentally. It takes a toll on your relationships. Raising children is a huge life change, and if it isn’t going quite the way you always hoped or imagined, hang in there.
Better days are coming.
And in the meantime, do everything you can to take care of yourself. See your doctor, get your thyroid level checked out, talk to a counselor, exercise, have lunch with a friend, go on a date, do something kid-free.
Mama, may you find joy hiding underneath all the mess, exhaustion, worries and cares of motherhood.